Reality Check

I went to the doctor yesterday to get my thyroid re-checked. About a year ago, I went in because I was tired all the time, so the doctor ordered blood work from me, and found out I had hypothyroidism. In my words, it means my thyroid is lazy. I've been on Synthroid ever since. When I went in yesterday, I saw a new doctor (I use the health center at my college). He asked how I've been feeling since being on the medication. I'm honestly still tired, more like exhausted actually, and I still am having a hard time losing weight. He suggested I make an appointment to see a counselor there, because he felt I might be suffering from depression.

Depressed? Me? Well, I guess it's not totally out of the realm of possibilities. I have been especially down ever since my parents decided not to come to my wedding. Since then, I haven't been doing well in school, I cry a lot, and as I mentioned, am exhausted and want to sleep all the time. I made an appointment to start seeing a counselor at school next Tuesday, September 20th. Hopefully I can work through my issues and start feeling better. I had to fill out a long form, that included questions about what problems I would like to work on. I included "depression" on there, but also wrote down "emotional eating", as I feel I could use some help getting over my issues with food. I think my problems are all interrelated though. I am depressed over my family, which leads to me doing poorly in school, which leads to more frustration and sadness, which leads to my binges. I try to watch TV, movies, anything, and stuff my face to distract myself from the pain I feel when I think about things.

I really want to become a more positive person. I really am cynical when it comes to a lot of things. Some people truly believe that your attitude about things affects the outcome. If you think negatively, you're going to get negative results, but if you're positive, you will be successful. Well, I'm not sure exactly how much I by into that, but I do believe that how you feel about things affects your actions. Your actions directly affect your outcome. In that line of thinking, I guess your attitude really does influence your outcome. Perhaps I should try to think positively and confidently about my projects, and then perhaps I will act accordingly and be more successful. It's worth a try anyway, isn't it?